unhappy

Wow. Even blogspot's layout is different. Just realized that for so long not been keeping this journal, status changed to married and when I'm back, it's the same old topic to rant about.

However the one I always wish Is close always dissapoint me most. What more, now 2 of them. Sigh. Maybe I'm and have always been the backup one. Have always wished there's a better bond in this relationship but seems like they're happier than with me.

Arggh the feelings killing me but........ Just gotta swallow it!!! Sigh........heartsbleedingmassiveheadache...