unhappy

Wow. Even blogspot's layout is different. Just realized that for so long not been keeping this journal, status changed to married and when I'm back, it's the same old topic to rant about.

However the one I always wish Is close always dissapoint me most. What more, now 2 of them. Sigh. Maybe I'm and have always been the backup one. Have always wished there's a better bond in this relationship but seems like they're happier than with me.

Arggh the feelings killing me but........ Just gotta swallow it!!! Sigh........heartsbleedingmassiveheadache...

Trust

I am still wondering what is the purpose of me going...Ponder and ponder but no answers to it! In the end, well, ok..just enjoy the trip and process..It might turn out unexpected..

Sometimes, trust is very much needed!! If you don't trust me, then do not ever ask me to do things for you! Please bear in mind that I am not ur slave..If you do not appreciate me, then let me know..I will be happy to take my leave then...

It's been sooo long

It's been a while(A year to be exact) since I dropped by here. I've been wanting to start bloggong again about a month or so ago but never did so. Today, I seized the opportunity to "snake" a little and write.

Life has changed. There are good times, bad times.. So many things, people have changed and happened. I really hope I could get back into my blogging mood..I realized that writing really helps to release stress, release anger and just rant about not worrying about others...

Facebook is so common now that whatever I write, I have to stop and think if I should post it up or not. Coming back here gives me the sense of security knowing that only those who know this exist will dropby or maybe..just maybe they will not because there has been nothing new here for so long..so, maybe the writer the abandoned it. ;)

Work: Hmm, what's there to say? Good? Well, there are good times. Hectic? It feels good to have that sometimes. Just wanna say that jobscope ain't clear enough and I've got to do everything bits and pieces here and there which I am not too happy about! (But I love the flexibility of time!)

However, tonnes of knowledge gained in this industry. Wait! What industry?? Entertainment? It doesn't feel like it. Yeah, maybe sometimes. Retail? Bits and pieces. Charity? Still a baby in this but growing. Information finder? Yeah, most of the time. Housekeeper? Yeah, gotta remember to include this in my CV. Anyhow, am not complaining much. I guess it is just a matter of time as to how long I can take it. I realize my level of patience have increased tremendously!

Love Life: Great! Lots of love showered! Care and hope! Looking to a better future together.

Family: Great! Taking each other for granted at times. Well, who doesn't but we'll always be sticking for each other ;)

Friends: Thank GOD for them to keep me sane! I miss my old colleagues and friends I do not meet often a lot. Please know that you all are always in my mind and heart although we do not meet often. (Here's thanking Facebook so that I get to know what's up their sleeves from time to time ;)

Sisterhood...

Gosh, I do miss you dearest blog~~ I guess Facebook is the new blog now and you might be forgotten..Well, maybe only me...

It seems like my blogging spirit is back and hope it'll maintain ;) Changed my job as a PA to an artiste. Not that all knows her but I guess many would..It may seems or sound glamourous but then again, everything has its pros and cons...

Time flies and 2 more months, I've changed my job for a year...There are temptations of leaving again as it is time to really look into what I want..There are options waiting and with God's grace, I hope to settle it as soon as possible. Still praying and waiting for God's answer.

Receiving good news from friends around that they are hitching up especially from my beloved sister...There has been downs between us but am happy that it is patched up. However, I still feel as though there is something missing. Maybe the lack of communication.........All these while, it has been nagging me but never voiced it out especially since she's moved away..I do miss her but never call cause am afraid of disturbing her. To me, it feels like she already have her own family...Not that I am complaining. Am superb happy for her but just feels that am not sharing enough with her...

Now that she is getting married, thought that there's lotsa things to do but til now, nothing much cause she's really busy..and with every decision, we'll have to pray and listen to God. Know that she is as anxious as me but we'll have to accept and wait. At times, when I hear from others knowing a little more than me, the little green starts creeping out...

We were supposed to meet but in the end, I just asked her to call..too many co-incidences happening as well. Was really HAPPY that she called the other day but it had to end too soon......
Now, just gotta wait for her call again to update which I hope will be soon...

Sounds clingy but then again, maybe I treasure this relationship too much to actually just give it up like that.Moreover after what I have seen and experienced from work...I feel that if they can do it, why CAN'T us??

Bugs Bite!!!

This year, the year 2009...Is an OK OK year for me BUT the 2nd half of the year, my luck is slightly off especially my legs...

Middle of the year, I sprained my ankle..Then, last Saturday, I went to Asia Cafe with my boyfriend to watch football while having dinner.. At the big screen area.

Well, as usual, after dinner and football watching session, we went back..Next day, after showering, my legs were itching!!! Like mad...I scratched and scratched and scratched....Asked my bf to have a look and he was shocked..He asked what did I do to myself and why was I hurting myself..Haha..

Well, of course, I was a bit worried when I saw his expression..I could not see as it was at the back of my legs...Took a few pictures and I too felt, yucky..Too bad, the specialist was closed for the day so I had to bear the itch and pain..Was forced to wear long pants even at home! so that I do not keep scratching.

Next day, it was worse and no choice, had to pay a visit to the doctor! Waited for nearly an hour, saw him for only 5 minutes. Below is the conversation we had after he saw my rashes...

Doctor: Did you go anywhere lately? Like Asia Cafe?
Me: (Eyes was super big!!) Ya Ya...(In my heart: how did you know?)
Doctor: You sat at the rattan chair?
Me: (Speechless) Yaya!!!
Doctor: Hmm, yeah, Bugs bite....
Me: So, I see I'm not the only one..
Doctor: Yeah..There were a few cases. I went to look for the management to complain but in vain...

And I had to part with at least RM100+ after visiting this doctor of mine whereby I only needed to see him for 5 MINUTES...5MINUTES = RM100...

There you go..Sigh..Sometimes, the management should do something as keeping their property clean..Therefore, my friends, if you want to go to Asia Cafe, sit at the big screen area, please do not wear shorts or you might end up like me...(In actual fact, wherever you sit when you're there, just wear long pants/ shirt/ maybe 3/4 pants just to save your wallet and legs)

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Updates

I have always been wanting blog but at times, am so lazy to just open the laptop when I'm home.

Today, just wanted to browse around and I realized it's been some time since I've read my friends' blogs. Went blog hopping and just realized that I've missed out on so much...Sometimes I feel that we do not meet up often but by reading their blog, I'm closer and bonding with them again.

Among Mobian friends who blogs, I've always enjoyed Jase. Well, simply because number she writes in English!! haha...But somehow or rather, I find that we do share the same thoughts in certain issues...I just felt I understand and wished I could express it out like her..Also, sometimes I feel that, hmm, someone is expressing it out for me instead..Good.. haha...

Not to say I do not enjoy the rest of you ok? I do but I have to rely more on the pictures..Well, sometimes just by catching a few words, I can get what you're guys and girls are saying..Thanks to all my teachers ;)

Life have been good so far..Took a good break and had a good rest. Felt that time flies...Enjoyed my trip to Hong Kong and Malacca...

Started work today..It was fine...Thanks for the wishes...Though things look simple but there are certain stress as expectations that I set upon myself is high I guess...Certain things are just not going well. Hope it'll resolve soon.

Gonna update my Hong Kong trip soon...(Hope that I will not be lazy then)

Hypocrites....

Sometimes, you'll just wonder and wonder how human works...

It is amazing how one would do and say things...

It is pretty disappointing when you want to change your perception on one but then again they disappoint you...Thought that they could leave a better impression in your mind but then again.......

I was pretty angry and pissed off when I heard some stories.....It would be better not to hear but have you all ever imagined that sooner or later, what you said will reach others???

Please use your brains to think and process before you utter a single word. Also, please work things out as it is supposed to be and not wait til you are questioned. It has been so long since the documents are submitted and when asked over and over again, the answer was : yes, it is correct but then again, when the document reach me, it is not right...Meaning???

Grrrrrrrr.........Also, it is disappointing to know you are such person and being a fake.....A Hypocrite!!!!!

Sorry to know you are such a person...